In the words of Nadia Rose, “Guess who’s back? But I never left”. Sade’s back with a bang, tell a friend, tell a friend. I’m not quite sure where to start, with this one, so please humour me whilst I simply write.
I left off back in June, shrouded in a thick, heavy veil of exhaustion (mentally and physically) after a mutual decision between myself and my directors to leave my second job, to put it lightly, it seemed our personalities were not a… fit. At the time, I was a terrified shell of myself, but something in me, something small, spherical and light like a mustard seed had planted itself into my chest and from it began to bloom, bringing it with a steady faith, hope and reassurance that something beyond my expectation was on its way. After two difficult jobs, I can honestly admit I was worried, part of me thought the issue was down to ‘me’ (and in a way it was, my lack of confidence gave way to people to mistreat me and not value my contributions), it was a period that was heady with a mixture of disappointment, people shaking their heads at me with pity, and dealing with the pressure to succeed and aspire to black excellence, but instead of moping at home, the seeds in my chest sprouted thick green shoots, encouraging me to take my laptop to my local coffee shop to work, pushing me to do more voluntary work and think beyond the selfish part of me, the ‘me myself and I’ attitude, making me reach out to friends to ask “how are you really doing?” Through all of this, the little sprouts in my chest began to shake and expand, filling me with feelings of peace, and the knowledge that what was and is meant for me will never pass me by. I was so busy doing other things as well as applying for jobs, that this time, it felt different, I wasn’t fearful because a part of me absolutely knew it would only be a matter of time before the right job fell into my lap, after all, if God is for me, who can be against me? Can I get an amen?!
Yossy and I took a short trip to the French city of Marseille, a true melting pot of cultures with a heavy North and West African influence, it was a true delight. I’ve written a more in-depth post detailing our experience there which will be published soon. But the break was just what I needed, and it was so lovely to spend time in the sunshine with my little sister, who is honestly one of my best friends. We ambled through the city in search of freshly baked pain au chocolat’s in the mornings and sat outside drinking hot coffee and waving bonjour! To the very friendly locals. When we got back to England, I had a stack of job interviews awaiting me, I flew them all with confidence, ease, and adeptness, somehow in control of myself and filled with a sparkling confidence that nothing and no one could deny. I. Was. On. Fire.
I got job offers from every single interview I went to. In the end, I chose the practice I’m at now, a wonderful Architecture & Design practice in London Bridge, headed up by directors who are calm, kind, seriously hard working and incredibly knowledgeable. It’s nice to say I’ve finally found my dream job after an entire year post-university searching for ‘the one’. So that’s what I’ve been doing since July, working, working, working away, settling into my role, running to meetings, talking to contractors and clients on site and creating construction drawings. It feels like… a sigh of relief, that’s the only real way I can describe it, an overwhelming sense of peace cloaks me each morning as I sit on the 7:31 to Blackfriars, knowing that I jumped out in faith and waited for the I am that I am to catch me and meet me right where I was, and he did.
Life isn’t perfect, perfection is boring anyway isn’t it? But the buds in my chest have flourished into white bushy chrysanthemums, with bright green centres, shedding their tiny petals everywhere, a representation of my hope and faith, the things that keep me holding onto peace each and every day of my life.
So now that I’m back, what is to come on this little space? Well for one, I want to get back to writing, click-clacking away and sharing my thoughts on topics such as blackness, faith, womanism, community, love, art, architecture and so much more. It’ll be a little more ‘organic’, with more of a back and forth and I suppose with the odd sponsored post here and there (because transparency is cool). How does that sound my friends?
Oh, how I have missed you all, but your girl is back, she is back, she is truly back.
Speak soon
Sade xo
P.S. Photos are by my darling sister Yossy.
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Thanks Cassie! It feels SO good to be back with purpose <3xo
Congrats on the new job! So glad you’re back, and i look forward to more posts. ❤️❤️http://www.theactivespirit.com/
Thank you my love! I'm back with a minimum of two posts per week! <3 Thanks so much for sticking around – I really appreciate it!xo
Welcome back! I can't tell how how glad I am to see you doing better and feeling more grounded. It's beautiful to watch.
Thank you my darling, for always always always being so kind and supportive!xo
Welcome back Sade! Reading this made me realise how much I missed your writing. This post is so encouraging, I hope that my ‘cloak of relief’ is coming soon. So so happy for you, look beautiful! xxcocobellablog.com
Aw what a compliment! Thank you Demi! You'll be glad to know that there will be a lot more written content on here. I wish you peace, joy and the grace of God over your life, keep on keeping on, your faithfulness will be rewarded.xo
Welcome back! I really enjoy your writing and your content. I'm also wrestling with the prospect of making changes in my career so it's encouraging to read about your journey. All the best with the new job and look forward to all the new content from you! ��
Thank you Lily! Wishing you all the best in your new journey <3xo
This made me smile so much Sade!xxx
Aw thank you so much Natalie! <3xo
it's good to see you back and happy… I'm really happy for you!!may your joy be sustained, and full. Amen.
Amen! Thank you so much for the kind words Ada <3xo
Good to have you writing again. Welcome back!
Good to see you back! It's good to see you happy and more free and confident. I'm practicing having faith, now that I've left behind a job that I wasn't enjoying. But I sometimes catch myself wondering what I'm doing with my life. It's hard to know which is the right way to turn. So, I appreciate you writing about your journey. Look forward to seeing more!
I am genuinely glad that you are back! Wishing you all the best at your new job and I can't wait to read all your contents for the rest of the year. Oreoluwa’s blog
I am so happy to read good news from you!
Beautifulll.