Carpe Diem.

Seize The Day.

So, what happens when things don’t quite go to plan? Well, as human beings, naturally we panic, we overthink, we worry, we get agitated – angry even and we freeze. June, July, and a few days into August have been mostly be a mixture of myself feeling frozen with fear, not quite sure what I’m supposed to be doing or where I should be, but waking up daily, sitting at my desk reading a few scattered, “unfortunately you’ve been unsuccessful this time” e-mails and constantly refining my cv and portfolio, occasionally wondering “hmmm, what’s going on with me?”, and then filling myself with bad thoughts and labels such as “maybe my work is crap” or “maybe I’m just not cut out for it”. 

I went to Hillsong London’s annual conference on Thursday and Craig Groschel gave an awesome and very relevant word on comparison. He mentioned comparison being the thief of joy and our human obsession with being bigger, stronger, better and smarter than others. He himself said that he struggles with with wanting people to think he’s doing well, and thinking he’s important. But the key was to staying focused on your own race and not comparing yourself to others. Essentially – Your time will come if you just keep running your race, and running it well. It’s something I most definitely needed to hear and it came at a perfect time, right when I felt like giving up. I gotta tell you, after seven years of working and studying when you get to the finish line and things don’t work out like you had envisioned it kinda feels like heartbreak. So having to manage what two heartbreaks in quick succession of each other has left me feeling blue. Internet folk have been super kind this week, with people kindly reminding me of all I’ve achieved so far and I’m trying to remind myself of such each passing day, with every application I send off with fingers crossed and prayers attached. Our worth is not attributed to titles, or what people see or think of us, our worth quite literally rests in what we think of ourselves and nothing else to be quite honest. So as a collective, let’s start being nicer to ourselves, big up yourself for all your achievements, it could be something as small as getting out of bed in the morning (which I actually think is quite an achievement particularly on days where you feel your worst), to smashing your goals, left, right and centre. Let’s keep running that good race, keeping in mind how far we’ve come so far.

What I Wore…

DRESS – Boden | SHOES – Boden | BOOK – Alexa Chung ‘It’ 

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